lousy me

im always the one losing because that the job of a guy i guess

smiling at the storm

well i dont know what or where i did anything wrong but im just hoping that i will tahan just hope that im ready for all this.. i am ready for it anything that comes my way will not stop me i wanna stop letting my emotions run wild my thoughts run wild and my body breaking down well work hard man emmett you can do this!

Useless

i feel damn useless cant do a two shit about anything just using words to express myself but deep down inside i dont know how long more i can go like this i really wanna give me my heart but part of me is super afraid of whats gonna happen next thinking of going away now but will it be good to leave you at your lowest point and let you die alone i doubt so i know that i cant give you the happiness that other party have gave you im sure i just dont know a shit about relationship it up to you all to teach me about it i thought i was gonna be good at it cause i have heard lots of story and was there to help well now im in the situation myself and i dont know what to do i give am too weak for all this no point crying emmett you are weak just so you know

all the same?

Are the all the same making you feel so good and when you had a good feeling its gonna happen everything just stops and pulls back ? issit how the way things works? i really wanna know about life now seriously!

Giving you time

I respect and understand what you are going through right now i am giving you more time to understand your own emotions just dont give up on this... fight for this i promise this will last

should i?

Am i supposed to give in to myself falling for you or am i supposed to cut myself some slack to not fall in so quickly i really am kinda stress and worried.. You still seem unsure but your actions are kinda sure i really want you to give us sometime to get to know each other better i know its fast but lets make this count ? dont push me away keep me by your side

aftermath

im just afraid of falling into this shit again i dont want to feel like shit again i dont wanna love or so anymore i just wanna live my life as it is now stress free not wanting anything just me myself and I im totally afraid of falling again...i hate myself i really do