Moving on Day 1

 its really hard for me to move on man i really can forget the time we spend together the times we sit down and talk about everything you have to say to each other i really miss it so much i miss you by my side right now..but guess this is the way it has to be i gotta be stronger...wondering if you even miss the times we spend together or not cause moving on to you seems so easy its freaking difficult for me cause its my first time im doing this...i got what i wanted but this feeling made me wan even more of your kiss i really miss you n love you

Please if you wanna go just go

If you wanna let me move on dont even strike a conversation with me n ignore me for heaven sake i hate it when im fking ignore like that you never did this to me before why now before my birthday before a day so special to me just go seriously dun hold me back from my progress you wan company go find other guys you are hurting me way too much i doubt you even respect me in the first place being too nice is a sin trust me~

this is why i feel that you aint interested

You appear to be online but u reply me like dunno after a few mins then u go offline like u reply me for the sake of replying mah then what i can do i say also u angry i dun say also angry then when i express myself you turn a deaf ear how you wan me to talk to you like that not as if im not giving in to you lehs i really tried already... Not like i nv express how i feel what i told you then u act like u doing other stuff then u change topic i can do what??? i ask you again u say i irritating then how i suck loh!

Uncontrollable

I have no rights to control you i have no rights to do anything...im blogging about it because i somehow feel that you totally lost interest in talking to me and i really have no one to turn to your replies are somewhat i dont know how to reply you de its totally not like the old time when u would really entertain me now you totally just reply me for the sake of replying and everytime i try to strike a convo it just end the next moment tell me is this what u really wan to see to see me leave everything behind and move away? tell me man i cant take it but i gotta ....i hate myself i really hate myself i just wanna die this instants... its so wrong to love really so wrong Ally tell me are you even interested in talk or in me at all or anymore? or am i just there to accompany you when are feeling lonely i wouldnt had been like this if you had not lead me on so far...Now sorry already too late im wounded deeply n on the verge of giving up on everything so precious to me now..Guess even Gods laughing at me imma dimwit....If you are not ready please dont do this to any other guy please it really hurts so bad and you are kinda not giving shit about it... You say you do but i dont see it happening i see nth maybe previously you did but recently i doubt so... You tell me to speak of anything if i had to when i tell you we gotta start a quarrel so i would rather keep it to myself because thats the best way to avoid us quarreling over nothing...Even though i love you i cant help thinking if im better without you if we stay together it could get worst and maybe it could get better... if you are reading this i really hope you will show that you care if you really do if not just kick me out of you life im moving away from cheer from school from everywhere to not see you =( i love you dearly but guess i dont get the same treatment back.... they say good guys never last i dont really see myself as a really good guy maybe im too good towards you thats why you find me boring already so wrong to be nice to people they only tend to take you for granted! i feel so lost in life my spirits wandering around like a headless ghost heading to nowhere hopefully it just moves out of this world so i can end my misery soon enough... I hate myself but i love my family

late nights

You might say im wimpy or so but i've been crying myself to sleep this few days very confuse about life very confuse about everything i just wanna sleep and never wake up

my heart

I still love you im sry about that im just too weak to let you go even though i said that im done with you but deep down my heart i still care and love you just hope that you feel that same lets not care about what others say and carry on with our own lifes? its my life not theirs they can only say but ultimately its me living it not them so stop bringing them into the picture if you really like me then give yourself a chance not like i wont wanna give you a chance im only waiting patiently for it... i know im jealous n possessive but isnt this good it shows that i care about you just want you to express what you are feeling inside and not hide anything be it good or bad just be true to yourself and me and lifes gonna be so much more happy i love you bitch hope you understand where im coming from!

wa scratch head sia

really lehs u can really talk halfway fucking ignore me like that i really dun understand a shit lehs really i feel like breaking down already i hate it when someone ignores me thats the worst feeling go ahead doing that my life gonna just end straight!

convos

its seems like the convo we are making aren't as interesting as before cos you dun seem to be interested to communicate with me anymore its more of a like i need to reply you thing....i dunno what to do lurh i really dunno

But i still do care about you i really do i just cant help it hope you appreciate it... hoping for a kiss haha!

lying

Well if you really wanna talk your replies wont be like this de but well i cant blame you im just too boring for you to converse with haha i also know it myself sorry!