here's a season to be jolly

Hmm you sure this season to be jolly i doubt so when u cant spend that joy with someone special... i thought that this year would be the year that i could celebrate it with someone special but apparently not happen in my life now...i mean i cant wait to share this joyful season with that special someone its gonna be such a great memory for me......i totally have not moved on but still trying looking at the rate you are going yeah u had already moved on in life glad for you but hope that you aint hurt in the process of that.. Im always here will be and always be

Try - Pink

Ever wonder about what he's doing
How it all turned to lies
Sometimes I think that it's better to never ask why

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try

Eh, eh, eh

Funny how the heart can be deceiving
More than just a couple times
Why do we fall in love so easy
Even when it's not right

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try

Ever worried that it might be ruined
And does it make you wanna cry?
When you're out there doing what you're doing
Are you just getting by?
Tell me are you just getting by by by

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try

You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try

what to do?

what should I do? stay strong move on? Be weak and get kicked?

Never quitting

Some days i feel like shit some days i cant give it my all some days i just wanna quit... Its ok im still standing here waiting for you.... times like this may be tough but im still here waiting on you

Where you go?

 Wishes we made together

 A for?

Where are you when i needed you the most where had you go too? remember the times at Chinese gardens?  remember the times we spend the whole day together talking about everything? Why dont you miss me? this memories are always running through my mind... if you are reading this do tell me that you miss those times too...P.S I Love You

December

This time of the year should be a time where people laugh and celebrate n be merry but not for me. this time of the year is the worst time of my life i can say that for now maybe . been losing everything so dear to me and obviously that party knows about it but doesnt cares much about it being there for her ups n downs really made me happy but it aint my fault for being emotional about all this because i dont see much effort... yeah you have now you Ex to get back to what about me ? It not like im the one playing with girls you know i did my part already... December please pass really soon its killing me already

Zoukout?

Was promised to a last dance but didnt had it I keep quiet about it i felt sooooo sad stress tired of life i freaking smoke a pack of cigg which i dont even smoke i really wonder by doing all this will you give a damn shit about it? I really dont think so you acted like nothing happen i mean yes you said thank you? was it for the sake of saying it or what i dont know... i thought i was having a good time but eventually i didnt i was just there to relief myself from reality !

Stress

Damn i shouldnt had done it i shouldnt its really so not me... I fucking started smoking fuck this shit i shouldnt had done it guess i was just toooooo stress about everything 5-6 stick man dafaq i had better stop it man

Depressions

I been having sign of depression and its kinda real bad i just wish that everything was back to normal when im always happy and cheerful and carefree i wanna be back to that state this is killing me raging at random stuff... going crazy thinking of committing suicides i must be kinda crazy to think so much heard from my friend saying that i hit even criteria of a depression personnel i gotta visit a doctor soon before this gets worst!

Understanding?

How would you want someone to understand you when you yourself dont even understand yourself or you wont even open up to people i only can understand you this limited amount and the rest of it is up to your will to open up to that person i know i have a part to play in this but i am to be blame for everything aleast be understanding about how i feel man you just walk away and said you are tired of this shit then what am i suppose to do man of cause i get upset what its not like i forced you to do all this to me... then now you totally dont even wanna talk to me or befriend with me and you say you can trust no one when you know it well enough that im always there for you its kinda like you shoving people aways instead of people disliking you come on im here to  help well i know you dont need my help anyway

Baby please dont go away

Well i bet you dont know that im kinda upset that i been treated but im trying already i really miss you so badly but i doubt you wanna see me like this i know it really hard and im been really hard on myself i been losing my appetite shrinking no mood for anything i just wish you were here by my side just understand me will you i am really asking for too much but if you were not working this way would i be like this think about it man i been holding back my emotions for far too long i tried i give lots of freedom and time until i really exploded then you just walked away from me... i know i fail at trusting its always been my fault for all this when you read this or if you dont i would really appreciated you to give me time be my friend n not just walk away from me 

I told myself that i can do it

I thought i could i thought i would but i couldn't bear to let it go like that i haven seen you safe haven seen u happy enough for me to move on i am trying to somewhat be happy trying to be changing back to the old emmett but it seems like i cant move on in life anymore im giving up. I just want to chat with u like the old times just want to feel everything i been through with you again i really miss those times.. i guess you are hating me very much right now but if you know that im am suffering from depression im sry . I miss you! bye!