Understanding?

How would you want someone to understand you when you yourself dont even understand yourself or you wont even open up to people i only can understand you this limited amount and the rest of it is up to your will to open up to that person i know i have a part to play in this but i am to be blame for everything aleast be understanding about how i feel man you just walk away and said you are tired of this shit then what am i suppose to do man of cause i get upset what its not like i forced you to do all this to me... then now you totally dont even wanna talk to me or befriend with me and you say you can trust no one when you know it well enough that im always there for you its kinda like you shoving people aways instead of people disliking you come on im here to  help well i know you dont need my help anyway