down side of me

well i can write my feelings here i cant write my feelings there no ones there to safe me from where i am now i am controlling but i feel that im totally unappreciated here i am trying to make you smile and hmm i dont know but maybe you lost interest in me or what so i have no idea i really am here to try really hard for this but you know it takes two hands to clap it wouldnt had start if you didnt initiated everything now its all about you give up or fighting for it cause im pretty lost about it now and kinda upset and tied up about it =(